-In the past, while I never violated the Honor Code besides this incident in CS 38, I didn't take it very seriously. 
-I viewed it as a set of rules to follow and did not care as much as the principles behind it, about doing my part in the Caltech community.
-Examples: getting help for problems from StackExchange in Ma 5bc and Ma 108a, getting carried on sets and not making my best efforts to solve problems on my own in CS 21 and Ma 5bc, when these practices were within the bounds of the rules.
-These are not necessarily violations of the Honor Code and certainly are not uncommon practices among students. However looking back, they definitely do not follow the principles of honest learning that is emphasized at Caltech. Esentially, I wasn't living up to my full potential as a student. Just because other people may be doing something or if something is technically within the rules does not make it right.
-This honestly was due to burnout from math and math competitions in high school -- I had pushed myself to learn so much so quickly in preparing for USAMO that I didn't really appreciate math/theoretical CS for its own sake as much anymore. I just had a lot less desire to learn new material than I did as a high schooler.
-In the particular case I am currently being tried for, I violated the Honor Code largely out of a desire to help my friend who is Respodent 2, to help him learn the material fully, as the rigorous proofs of the course can oftentimes go over the head of many CS majors who are less experienced in proof based math. I also, selfishly, felt I could strengthen my friendship with Respondent 2 through my assisting him learn the material, and neglected to consider the impact this could have on the community. This neglect was born out of some social isolation issues that I was going through at the time.
-Almost always it was myself finding or attempting to find the solutions to these difficult problems and writing the initial solutions Respondent 2 would then look at, but this does not make my behavior any less worse than his and I understand that.



I can attest to everything below. The above I didn't know about and can't say anything about. - Alex

-For the past few months, since around the end of November, I have been doing some reflection on my actions in my freshman year and have felt pretty dissapointed in myself for not taking my studies more seriously. I'm by nature a pretty academic person but I have not acted this way in some time and I have felt that I have not successfully taken advantages of my opportunities at Caltech.
-Hearing about this case and beginning the trial process shook me and cemented my desire to become a better student.
-In this term I've drastically improved how much I have been learning. I start sets well in advance, make honest attempts to solve the problems on my own before getting hints at office hours, and try to show up to class more although that has been more difficult as a lot of my mental energy has gone towards this case. 
-However, it was difficult to fess up that part of my strong mark in CS 38 -- which I carry a lot of pride in, largely due to its reflection of my performance on the exams -- and as such I agreed to lie with Respondent 2. This led me down a deep rabbit hole.
-After meeting with Dean Nye for the first time and seeing how I had negatively harmed the Caltech community, I mustered the courage to confess my wrongdoings. Doing so made me feel much more emotionally complete and was extremely satisfying. 
-In this process, I came to my senses and decided to be more true to myself in the future. Namely, I would decide to focus more on carrying myself as a strong student with integrity, something I know is consistent with who I am as a person since I began to become interested in math, and as such become a productive and mutually beneficial member of the Caltech community. My greatest desire is to have the opportunity to carry myself in such a way with a clean slate, with a new beginning and without the weight of the trial hanging over me.
-Still, even though I will willingly accept whatever course of action the Deans decide to take, I disagree with the recommendation highlighted in the BoC report. As I have matured greatly and am transforming into someone who is genuinely passionate about their studies and does not desire to take advantage of any other member of the Caltech community in any manner, I do not think I am a threat to the Caltech community at present. I can understand how the BoC came about this conclusion, but with all the circumstance brought into light finally, I do not think that it is an accurate assessment. As such I would like for the Deans to revise the protection clause.